I'm loving pregnancy in so many ways but now that I'm further along and closer to the due date rather than conception I'm sort of freaking out. Crying has been a thing of mine lately which is strange especially when I've been pretty even kill emotionally.
I do use an essential oil from do-terra called "clary calm" every night before bed and that seems to keep me from acting like a maniac and being super emotional all the time. I know it's been working for me because I really don't feel a whole lot different emotionally than from not being pregnant.
Anyways back to delivery. When I first found out I was pregnant I cried every morning by myself and hardly slept with severe anxiety over having a baby. Its not that I don't want her I just don't want to HAVE her. Please tell me I'm not the only one!
I'm just really scared and I always have been. Oh and I'm really tired of hearing all the bad horror stories especially after I open up about myself being so terrified of delivery. I'm not sure why some mom's think it's funny to tell me about them. Here's what I'm working with people:
"Millions of women have done it"
my reply: clearly but did you ever stop and think that at that point they might not have a choice? Once you are in it girlfran there's no turning back.
"you're not going to die"
my reply: well I probably won't die falling down a flight of stairs and breaking my leg, but why would I ever want to go through that? NO
Ok I'm going to take my feisty little Italian self and go about my business for the day!